From 'Sickness Unto Death'

Penguin classics,  Translated by Alastair Hannay.

p74 - Kierkegaard's opinion of Hegel, after drawing so heavily on Christian theology, concluding that he drained it dry and disbelieving.

No, being in error is, quite un-Socratically, what people are least afraid of.  One sees amazing examples of this which illustrate it on a stupendous scale.  A thinker erects a huge building, a system, one that encompasses the whole of life and world-history, etc. - and if one turns one's attention to his personal life one discovers to one's astonishment the appalling and ludicrous fact that he himself does not live in this huge, high-vaulted palace, but in a store-house next-door, or a kennel, or at most in the janitor's quarters.  If one took it upon oneself to draw attention with but a single word to this contradiction, he would be insulted.  For so long as he can complete the system - with the help of his error - being in error is not what he is afraid of.

 p104 - Kierkegaard's describes yours truly with clarity and brutality:

We began [] with the lowest form of despair, which in despair did not want to be itself. The demonic despair is the most heightened form of the despair which in despair wants to be itself.  This latter despair does not even want to be itself in Stoic self-infatuation and self-exaltation, not even in that no doubt mendacious way, but one that in a certain sense conformed to its own ideal of perfection; no,  it wants to be itself in hatred towards existence, to be itself according to its misery; it does not even want defiantly to be itself, but to be itself in sheer spite; it does not even want to sever itself defiantly from the power which established it; it wants in sheer spite to press itself on that power, importune it, hang on to it out of malice. And that is understandable - a malicious objection must, of all things, take care to hang on to that to which it is an objection.  Rebelling against all existence, it thinks it has acquired evidence against existence, against its goodness.  The despairer thinks he himself is this evidence.  And it is this that he wants to be; this is the reason he wants to be himself, to be himself in his agony, so as to protest with this agony against all existence.

This is what I am constantly to repent of. To be is good.  Even if you are a silly person who can't forsake too many projects and has very little talent at any of them.